there is no need for castigation
in the halls of your cognition
there is no need to infuse each heartbeat
with heartache and derision
there is no need to announce your failures
and synchronize your terrors
and anticipate the coming of tomorrow
with today’s begotten sorrow
i have forgotten often times
just what it really means
to say yes and to say no and
to deliberate the in betweens
to act forth without presumption
of my own inadequate reaches
and the toiling and the striving
even as my heart beseeches
and tells me, my child,
i have gotten too heavy
for you to keep ignoring
the things I have to carry
and we are not old and not young
but the path is strangely paved
and the wind is strangely cold
and the sins strangely depraved
there is a desert in this heart
where an ocean used to be
a dozen storms in the sky
a hundred verses off their key
and the war does not stop
and the skirmishes barely settle
and the sword in your hands
would sooner find another rebel
than to keep trying to defend
what is barely left upright
for the kingdom that is divided
will not win in a fair fight
But somehow this too, shall pass
like all terrors from beyond:
this is what we know about life
like a show, it must go on.
- July 2020, the year we do not want to remember
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